umm, so much there i am nodding about, but can't even begin to explain why. As usual you've articulated stuff that bounces around my head in a vague way without words. What seems vague and untangeble to me is put into well worded reality by you.

I have friends who I can talk to totally, or I don't deal with people at all. I"d rather be alone than on a superficial plane. The only person I am superficial with is my sister, because it's the only way anyone ever relates to her, and she is my sister so I figure it's worth the pain of superficiality.

I would love to talk to you about all of this some time.