I wouldn't want to talk with you through the night. Not right now. Not while it would exhaust you. Damned if I'd want my blather to cause you pain.

And I understand what you mean re: contact/not contact with people. You love the contact, love the togetherness, but there's a need to control and regulate it. All or nothing is too hard. At least, that's what I drew from your post, and it's how I feel pretty much all of the time.

Damn I wish we knew how to get you right again.