I didn't go into huge depressions after the stroke, and it didn't hit much even when we lost Tracy. I think it's just the last year and a half having finally caught up with me. It has been an exceptionally rough time for me. Certainly the night when it all hit, everything that had happened was blossoming in my mind like big black fireworks, over and over again.

RE: my crush... I think I may do a post on it. I haven't had a crush (at least, not something I identify as a crush) in a long, long time. Usually people are friends, ones I like, ones I like a lot, ones I love, ones I love a lot, ones I love deeply, ones I'm in love with.

Though it's still more subtle than that. And sometimes I skip any sort of steps and fall straight in love with someone.

Glad my words made you feel less alone. People ask me why I desk about so much of my personal life and thoughts - this is exactly the reason why.

*tight hugs*