It's all me, baby!

[dalekboy]

Swimming exhausts me for the entire next day, so you can imagine how buggered I am tonight after a lesson. I'm at the tired level where all my filters start to shut down one by one, so anything that's in my head starts to just come out. Fortunately typing filters things a little bit. But not much. I only just avoided replying to someone by saying, "Just send money... or naked pictures..." Given I don't know them that well, I rethought that one... just...

Anyway, my point here is my general silliness. After ten years of marriage, Sharon has just discovered that the silly stuff I do around her, mum, and other people, I also do when I'm on my own.

I thought she knew!

I was really surprised. I mean, I wasn't hiding it. Hell, I can't pass a mirror without gurning, or checking out how my body looks in different poses, and trying to decide which pose is funniest/stupidest/most likely to get a laugh. I talk to myself in silly voices. I mean I couldn't be as constant with my silliness if I wasn't this way when she wasn't around. The facade would slip. Oh I have my serious, quiet times. Lots of them. But the random acts of stupidity are always lurking in the background. And just because no-one else is present, so what?!

Shaz - 'I didn't realise you still do this stuff when you have no audience!'
Me - 'There's always an audience. Just because I can't see them doesn't mean they aren't there.'

harveystoat, gutter_monkey? I figure you're the two who would most be likely to do the same.

Life's too short not to be enjoying it every instant you can. Back me up, someone!

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Hand slowly goes up.

[battblush.livejournal.com]

I also talk to myself when alone. I ask myself questions and answer in a different voice. I put this down to having kids. They're pure noise all day, so when they're gone I find the silence stifling and need to fill it.

And the other thing I do when alone is dance around the house rather than walk. Well, not dance exactly, but perfrom aerobic moves. I'll grapevine, sashay, box step and easy walk from room to room because I feel so FREE!

Re: Hand slowly goes up.

[fred-mouse.livejournal.com]

When no-one is around, I encourage myself to get stuff done in *exactly* the tone of voice I use on tired grumpy toddlers to get them to do stuff. About as successfully. (including bribes of chocolate, and threats of naps)

[lilysea.livejournal.com]

Oh! I talk to myself cajolingly too, to try and make myself do difficult or unpleasant things.