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dalekboy ([personal profile] dalekboy) wrote2010-03-04 10:48 am
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The Worst Thing You've Ever Done

This piece is not about any one person specifically, it's about the way people are demonised in general.

I want you to think about the worst thing you've ever done. Something, no matter how long ago you did it, that you're still ashamed of. Don't shy away from it, think hard about the nastiest, shittiest, lowest thing you've ever done to someone.

Now, I want you to imagine people in general, and the internet as a vague group, deciding that's the person you really are.

Think about how they would react, how they would treat you, attack you, the things they would write about you - for a single act. It doesn't matter if it was a mistake, deliberate, or if there were extenuating circumstances - they don't care. There's little to no forgiveness out there, almost every time folks talk about you, it will be in relation to whatever it was you did.

How would that make you feel, as the weeks became months and years, and people still brought it up? How would you feel about the fact that no matter what else you did, there would always be someone there ready to bring up that single bad decision and start the whole thing up again? That every other positive act in your entire life would be deemed unimportant or irrelevant compared to this single event.

I'm not saying there should be universal forgiveness. Some people repeatedly do horrid things to others. I'm not saying there shouldn't be a price to pay for a single error, sometimes we have to make amends. But if the only issue you can find with a person is one really bad thing they've done, then doesn't that suggest there may be more to them than that one act?

Remember this the next time the crowd starts baying for someone's blood over a single mistake, especially if you're part of that crowd. Other people are as complex and have as many layers as you do.

You, and I, are not just the worst thing we ever did.

And neither is anyone else.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] crankynick.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
That's classy, what you did there. Jamming logansrogue into the middle of it, trying to get her to agree with one or the other of us. Pure fucking class.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] crankynick.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 03:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, so it's her fault, then?

Let me clarify, then - my issue is what Danny said, when he said it, and the context in which he started this "discussion".

How about we keep it to that?

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] gutter-monkey.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Jeez, you ARE cranky.

logansrogue came into this thread and called Danny out, he clarified his stance, they discussed it and logansrogue's final response was what I just posted. I didn't put her in the middle, she already came here and made her case all on her own.


Oh and fwiw I agreed with your own LJ post about how that guy isn't welcome at Swancon and people should be standing up and saying that out loud rather than dithering about it. If I was involved in WA fandom I probably would've made a very similar post.
I was also a little unsure about Danny's post in relation to that whole thing but if logansrogue is okay with it then that's good enough for me.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] crankynick.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Just so it's clear, this is what I was responding to:

logansrogue came into this thread and called Danny out, he clarified his stance, they discussed it and logansrogue's final response was what I just posted. I didn't put her in the middle, she came here of her own volition.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] gutter-monkey.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 03:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah that was clumsily worded by me so I deleted it and rewrote it so it was clearer. I meant in more in the spirit of "she's capable of speaking for herself and I'm just making sure that she gets heard"

I know I know I know.....

[identity profile] kowren.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
NOT ABOUT A CERTAIN EVENT

Just wanted to let you know that you have made me pause for thought. Good post. Well said. Poor timing perhaps but why put your life on hold for stuff that this isn't even about.

Thankyou for making me think.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] gutter-monkey.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
"Let me clarify, then - my issue is what Danny said, when he said it, and the context in which he started this "discussion".

How about we keep it to that?"

Okay, we can do that.

Firstly, since Danny himself is a past victim of sexual assault I think he's more than welcome to speak up about the subject whenever he feels like it, directly or indirectly. If he disagrees with the the majority in some way I think it's even more crucial that he speaks up. The fact that a victim is speaking on behalf of offenders should give everyone pause for thought.

Secondly, I think it's hypocritical of you to post your own "No one's saying anything about this horrible situation so I'm gonna say what I think needs to be said" post and then tear down Danny for making this post which was done with a similar motivation. It's doubly hypocritical for you to make an appeal to the Principle of Charity and then come in here and scream at Danny for what you assume he was implying rather than what he actually said. That's why I felt I had to comment.


"You've told the members of a community that got up and said "this is wrong, and the man that did it isn't welcome in our space any more" that they shouldn't have done it."

Look, I get that Danny's post caused that reaction in you, but I honestly don't think that he was saying anything like that at all.
In fact he's said the exact opposite in several places. He's not asking that the rapist be allowed to go to Swancon this year, he's not asking that we forgive and forget as if nothing ever happened. He's just asking that we consider the greater context of a person's life when we react to an act they've done. He's not telling us what decision to make when we consider that greater context, he's just asking us to make sure we consider it.


Personally I don't know if I'd be capable of that in this context. Two of my girlfriends had been raped before I'd met them, one had never even spoken to anyone else about it and had been trying to deal with it herself for years. I've seen firsthand how it can destroy lives. The thought that someone could do that to my friends or loved ones makes me frantic with anger and helplessness. I really really don't know if I could see such an act in a greater context but if Danny is asking me to try then I'll at least think about whether I could.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] crankynick.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Here is the blunt answer.

What Danny wrote lead to this, and and this, and and this.

And I don't think Danny meant for this to happen, or is ok with it, or isn't horrified at the sentiments expressed.

But this post helped make these responses OK - as I said above.

And before you have a go at the person that said these things I just linked to, read this, and tell me there's no pattern of behaviour here, and we shouldn't have chased that man out of our community.

ETA: minor edit to add a line I meant to type in the first place.
Edited 2010-03-04 17:16 (UTC)

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] gutter-monkey.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
The first two links ('Here' and 'this') go to the same place. Was there supposed to be another link in there? I'm just asking so I don't miss anything before I reply.


Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] crankynick.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
No. Those three only.

Save it for morning. I'm going to bed.

Re: If not this, then what?

[identity profile] gutter-monkey.livejournal.com 2010-03-04 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, okay.

You can't blame Danny for kowren's posts. It's not like kowren was on your side and Danny changed her mind, and it seems likely that in the current climate kowren would have made a similar post regardless of whatever Danny said.

Maybe it's the fact that kowren keeps namedropping Danny as if he's some sort of supporter that's got you riled up? Again, it's not Danny's fault if kowren has jumped to that conclusion and is trying to push it.

Thirdly, if you're going to go and blame people for the responses that their posts get then you should probably keep in mind that your post back in February was probably one of the catalysts for Danny's current post ...


Uh, I should probably say something else here. Please don't think that I'm pissed off at you. I'm sure Danny would much rather you call him out immediately and directly rather than go and complain about him to other people. You had a problem with Danny and you came right out with it, which was the Right Thing. Much the same as your post back in February was the Right Thing.
I'm pretty much only having this conversation with you because your first reply was left hanging there and no one was touching it. Danny can defend his own beliefs perfectly well but it looks like he's signed off for the night.

I'm a firm believer in getting stuff out in the open and I think it's especially important in this situation because there's a hell of a lot of people upset, in WA and also in the other states. The crime that was committed on logansrogue is affecting a lot of people (which is in no way her fault) and causing a lot of anguish and anger in the community as a whole. The fact that it happened several years ago and is still a major issue shows that the community hasn't come to terms with it yet. Now that we're all discussing it we can let logansrogue know that she has the support and concern of hundreds of people. We can let the rapist know that many many people are still incredibly angry at him and don't want him to attend Swancon. (The fact that he was even considering going shows that this message wasn't getting through to him before.) Even kowren's posts are important in that we now know what's on her mind and we can adjust our opinions of her accordingly.
I think Danny's post was aimed more at eventually healing the community as a whole and dealing with the poison that's been sitting in our guts for the last few years.


[identity profile] vegetus.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
So views *from other victims of assault*, that aren't the same as yours are "crap".

I really think you need to have a think about that. You don't seem to like it when other victims of assault disagree with you, yet you'll happily insult them and their views.

Re: I know I know I know.....

[identity profile] firvulag.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Regardless of the timing, it will always be poor. People don't like to hear that they should examine their own lives before calling down judgement on others.

People like to think they're better than others, usually because they are afraid that they aren't.

I completely agree with Danny's post as it was intended and as he has described it. I don't think it is about a specific event for him either.

If I've learnt one thing since I kicked over some rocks and probably started this whole thing going (though I'll be happier if I didn't...) is that people love to read other things into what you write. They love to take things the wrong way, and damn you for all eternity if you put just one word wrong.

I have done things that I'm not happy with. I have done things that I don't want the wider community to know about. I only regret a few actions I've taken though, and they are the ones that are the worst things I've done.

Thank you

[identity profile] firvulag.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
Very good post. Thanks for writing it
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[identity profile] leecetheartist.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
Mmmm. It's when communication breaks down that wars start.

Re: I know I know I know.....

[identity profile] sjl.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
They love to take things the wrong way, and damn you for all eternity if you put just one word wrong.

My opinion here is that you're being a little bit harsh. With an online medium, there isn't (generally speaking) the immediacy of communication. You don't have the flow back and forth of ideas and thoughts; it's more stilted, more delays. There's also the lack of non-verbal cues - the tone of voice; the body language; the facial expression. All of these add an immense amount of information that too many people simply don't appreciate.

So people read something, and the tendency is to read into it what is already there in one's mind. I'm guilty of the same thing: I greeted a friend on MSN with "*doffs hat*"; she responded with a quote from the Two Ronnies. The line following that quote in the sketch was "Get lost" - and I was in a state of mind where I couldn't simply shrug off the possibility that she intended it in that particular way. She didn't, of course; it was just an off-the-cuff quote that was triggered by my greeting. We fill in the missing information in ways that are wildly off the mark, because we expect (at a low level) the information to be there ... and that leads to the misinterpretations and misunderstandings.

So I don't think it's that people love to take things the wrong way, as it is that there are nuances missing from a text-based medium (and even from an audio-only medium, such as the 'phone), leading to unintentional misinterpretations. The end result is as if people love to take things the wrong way, yes ... but I doubt that the majority of people deliberately set out to do so.

And of course, things that make us uncomfortable, like this post, automatically put us in a frame of mind where we're more likely to read nuances that aren't there, because we're uncomfortable, so our minds expect them ...

I'm rambling a bit, and there are probably some things I've overlooked in this stream of consciousness ... just thoughts to ponder (as if there aren't already enough in this post!) None of this is meant as a personal attack, just thoughts that have been bubbling around for a little while.

[identity profile] logansrogue.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
No, I don't think other people's views are crap, it was a bad word choice on my part.

Just because an opinion comes from a victim doesn't make their point of view free from being problematic. My own elder sister has said things that I virulently disagree with and she too is speaking as a victim. I still respect her and her opinion, but it doesn't mean I'm not allowed to say that it's messed up.

I shouldn't say it's crap though, but that's my sheer frustration and desperation in a messy situation talking, which is wrong of me.

Anyway, I've spoken to Danny about my behaviour here, apologised, and it's sorted out, so you can put down the torpedoes.

[identity profile] dalekboy.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
It's all emotive stuff on both sides - everyone is right, everyone is wrong.

At the end of the day, we're okay with each other and that's all that matters. *big hugs*

[identity profile] logansrogue.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
*hug hug*

[identity profile] bunny-m.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 12:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for this post. I can't even imagine how it would feel to be treated for the worst thing I've ever done.

Sympathies that there seems to have been explosions of drama in your LJ because of this, but thank you for saying so well what was in my head and heart, but that I just couldn't manage to put into words.

*sends you love*

Re: I know I know I know.....

[identity profile] bunny-m.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 12:18 pm (UTC)(link)
The end result is as if people love to take things the wrong way, yes ... but I doubt that the majority of people deliberately set out to do so.

Quoted for truth.

Also: I'm slightly jealous that you have friends taht quote TTR at you. ^_^

Re: I know I know I know.....

[identity profile] sjl.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 12:39 pm (UTC)(link)
One friend in particular - we're both mad Britcom fans. She's suggested a couple that I hadn't considered, and vice-versa ... one of these days, I'll head up to Brisbane (or she'll head down to Melbourne) and we'll have a marathon ... between the two of us, we have a very large segment of the collected output of the BBC and ITV over the past forty or fifty years. More than a little bit of duplication, too, but that's all good.

I think I'll watch a bit more before I go to bed. Just the one ...

[identity profile] nephron.livejournal.com 2010-03-05 12:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't want to go into this in great detail, but the transplant team absolutely made the right decision in denying that woman another liver. Not to say that she's a bad person, or not deserving- but there are very limited livers and very limited money to go around, and she would have known before she got her first liver transplant that further IV drug use was a no-no.
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[identity profile] shrydar.livejournal.com 2010-03-06 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
I thought of this post when I saw the following article:

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/crime/7365479/Jon-Venables-is-no-longer-the-guilty-boy-who-killed-James-Bulger.html

I'm moderately surprised no one's mentioned the case yet.

[identity profile] gemfyre.livejournal.com 2010-03-08 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
After the big blow up (alas, caused by my other half who has a tendency to think first and think later), I had written a response apologising for what he'd said, only to find that I had also had the opportunity to speak on the matter taken from me. For a couple of days I was in a real tizz and seriously bothered by it all. But after talking to a few people who wanted to hear all sides of the story (yes, people may be wrong, but dammit, there needs to be a forum for the argument or things just stew and get even more ugly), and reading this post, I think I feel better than when all this mess started. Thank you.

As for the one bad thing tarnishing you for life - I've been seriously contemplating a short fanfic I wrote about the topic. Maybe I should.

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