100 days of Love and Hate - Day 11

[dalekboy]

Contact
I know a lot of people. Friends, aquaintances and relatives would number in the hundreds. And I keep in regular touch with a couple of them. Some of the people I manage to not keep in contact with are folks whose company I really prize, who are important to me on multiple levels, who I have a strong bond with.

I'm just not wired towards contacting people. I like people, but I'm also a hermit. I have lots of projects that I'm working on and I inevitably remember that I wanted to ring someone late at night, later than I'm happy ringing. I'm crap at responding to email, and have actually gotten significantly worse since becoming ill since I only check mail every few days now, rather than daily.

The thing is, it's an aspect of myself that I hate. There are so many people that I want to spend time with, that I enjoy time with, that I love yakking to, and it just doesn't happen. My favourite Auntie, my biological mum, Mitch, Mondy... all these people are people I love, but it's rare that I chase them up. Before we moved in to look after her, I made sure I combined my shopping trip with mum's because that meant I saw her once a week. If I hadn't done that I would have been lucky to see her once a month.

And then there's the others. Mates interstate, overseas... People who enrich my life with every meeting, but I rarely communicate with them.

It's something that I've tried to change again and again. I like being social, catching up with friends and family, but I just don't seem to be able to do it.

And I feel bad because I worry that some of these people will think I don't care, that they aren't important to me, when it's just the opposite. I care a great deal, I'm just lacking the software to make it happen as often as I'd like.

It's one of the the reasons I like cock, it may not be ideal contact, but it's contact. It's short, I'm not likely to get distracted partway through, and it may give people a smile. If I didn't send it, I probably wouldn't get around to writing anything.

But I'm aware that it's not enough.




Wikipedia
I'm one of those people who, when given the chance to go through a dictionary or encyclopedia, will skip from one section to another, following threads and ideas that lead me well away from the original thing I looked up. I'm a curious person, if I had the capacity, I'd learn everything there is to know about everything. Instead, I 'specialise' in a couple of areas and pick up bits and pieces about as much as I can.

And Wikipedia, combined with Firefox's tabbed browsing, allows me to go nuts. I love wandering through its dusty webpages, flicking through links and cross-references, seeing what's out there. And to date, it's been very rare that I haven't found at least a pointer towards where I could get the info I needed.

As an information junkie, I find it a delight. And when I find it to be mistaken, I can do something about it.

Utterly marvelous.

Comments

[mynxii.livejournal.com]

Contact is important to me, and I've tried to find numerous ways by which to stay in touch, keep updated, give updates and such. I acknowledge one of my major ways of doing this is through livejournal.

Additionally, as you are no doubt aware, if have a deep and rewarding love affair with my mobile, and calling people on long trips home from work, or on my way out to somewhere :) I find that this enables me to keep in contact with people better.

I tend to be less good with email responses - however I'm training myself to reply straight away so that I don't get distracted or forget to do so, which has helped as well, however, having said all of this, I don't have the same energy conservation needs as you currently do - at which point, receiving an email or a cock from you is marvellous and makes my day :)

You're incredible and i adore you muchly :)

*cuddles*

contact

[khoath.livejournal.com]

Here here. Piles of people like catching up with me; and sure I don't have the energy demands on energy as you do; but catching up with the piles and piles of people who know me is extremely draining. I like my parties small; a group of close friends and time to catch up when I want to catch up. It doesn't mean I don't like all the people who want to catch up with me; I just don't have the resources to do it all.

[angriest.livejournal.com]

I never catch up with anyone. It's like I have hermit's syndrome or something.

I love wikipedia too.

[willowgypsy.livejournal.com]

You may be underestimating your ability to 'contact' people...

As someone who felt your special touch on my VERY brand spanking new LJ I am honoured you found the time.

[willowgypsy.livejournal.com]

Oh! And... (man, I am SUCH a newbie at this)... I agree about the infinite explorability of things such as Wiki!

I love the 'open link in new tab' option and use it often.

Sometimes I am caught needing to quickly shut down (flight being called!!) and I find I have 12 different tabs open leading to interesting places and I think... WOW!! (except there's usually an interestingly colourful word in front of it...)

[tearsxintherain.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean, I feel the same way as well. I never seem to have enough time to email, talk to, text and see all the people I want too. And so really important relationships seem to fade away.. :/

Makes it so much harder being so very far away. Hoping my new LJ well help!