Dalekboy

I know that this may sound...oh fuck it I have no idea how I'm trying to/not trying to sound. I've pretty much gone through the emotions you speak of. I can't put into words how it makes me feel to not be able to do things I previously took for granted. For example, run. But seeing that you are the person whom I know you to be, it can and will get easier. Pretty much by way of excepting that there is no choice in the matter. I still go down sometimes. I spent my 25th birthday alone crying my eyes out because I thought that I was a waste. I was 25 and had gone absolutely nowhere with my life. But it's my thought processes of realising that none of this is my fault so stop complaining and get on with it that help me through it. I've spent 4 years now of telling myself that aswell as forcing myself to not deal with everything alone. I've found it's a strange balance of consciencness and exceptance. Reading your post is like reading a reflection of myself since I was diagnosed. I hope some help can be found in that for you, cause as I've said before, I'd like to :)