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Feeling very down today. Nothing to do with Valentine's Day, the timing on that is purely coincidental. Been dodging a major depression for several weeks, struggling to get things done, dad would have been 73 last Friday, etc.
The kick-over point was Tuesday night, had a very bad reaction to a really icky bit of Chicken Kiev. Have had Chicken Kiev a few times before, was getting through this one ok, but then got really bizarrely weird texture I hadn't struck before, kind of a rubbery/jelly texture, which freaked me right out. It's by far the worst reaction I've had in a few years, really upsetting. Still feeling freaked now.
So that was the major tipping point. I've been doing so well on foods, slowly but steadily getting through new ones, that having such an extreme response was quite upsetting. And of course I'm feeling very tentative about trying anything new right now. That combined with needing to spend all my time and energy this week getting things done for mum, so I've got nothing left for the things I need to get done for myself or the trip, just concreted the mood in. And so the spiral continues.
It's cool, I'll live, it's just annoying. In the sort of mood where I just want to curl up in a ball in someone's arms and weep, stay in bed, or lose the day to lots of nicely distracting sex - none of which are an option. I'm struggling to do the stuff I know I need to to help alleviate or beat the mood. And one of the annoying things is that my mood has meant I wasn't able to fully appreciate the apology yesterday. I've waited a long time for that.
So feel free to tell me something nice and jolly. It doesn't have to relate to me or my life in any way at all. I'm always happy for other people's good news, experiences, ideas, or thoughts.
The kick-over point was Tuesday night, had a very bad reaction to a really icky bit of Chicken Kiev. Have had Chicken Kiev a few times before, was getting through this one ok, but then got really bizarrely weird texture I hadn't struck before, kind of a rubbery/jelly texture, which freaked me right out. It's by far the worst reaction I've had in a few years, really upsetting. Still feeling freaked now.
So that was the major tipping point. I've been doing so well on foods, slowly but steadily getting through new ones, that having such an extreme response was quite upsetting. And of course I'm feeling very tentative about trying anything new right now. That combined with needing to spend all my time and energy this week getting things done for mum, so I've got nothing left for the things I need to get done for myself or the trip, just concreted the mood in. And so the spiral continues.
It's cool, I'll live, it's just annoying. In the sort of mood where I just want to curl up in a ball in someone's arms and weep, stay in bed, or lose the day to lots of nicely distracting sex - none of which are an option. I'm struggling to do the stuff I know I need to to help alleviate or beat the mood. And one of the annoying things is that my mood has meant I wasn't able to fully appreciate the apology yesterday. I've waited a long time for that.
So feel free to tell me something nice and jolly. It doesn't have to relate to me or my life in any way at all. I'm always happy for other people's good news, experiences, ideas, or thoughts.
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I hope the same happens for you. Soon.
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I think the plan is to go out and have awesome Malaysian food, and then go make a 12 person puppy pile in someones lounge room
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That's so *Shiny*!
I think the plan is to go out and have awesome Malaysian food, and then go make a 12 person puppy pile in someones lounge room
That sounds incredibly cool. (:
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The Invasion of Time, while not an all-out classic, is a lot better than most fans give it credit for. Discuss.
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I also like that the Sontarans got there ahead of the daleks. And did it by using an entire race as shock-troops/fall-guys. How cool is that?
And Tom plays the serious elements of his taking control of Gallifrey straight.
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And the first time I saw it as a kid (on a repeat - Season 17 is the earliest I saw premiere), the cliffhanger to part 4 blew me away. I'd seen and loved "The Time Warrior" and "The Sontaran Experiment", and suddenly there were *lots* of Sontarans. Even in "The Two Doctors" they only manage a pair of them. The impact of seeing them, little rod guns raised in the middle of the Panopticon, with that fantastic piece of music behind them, was electric.
I'd put it as one of the best Who cliffhangers *ever*, actually.
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And Sontarans are excellent villains.
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Which reminds me, must call Slow Glass and see if he's got any of the manga in to send to me yet. :)
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And if that's not jolly enough, how about, ummm, CHEER UP OR I WILL KICK YOU!!1!!111!one!!11!!
...Did that work?
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And my comments about my magical vegan cunt are amusing many people in various lj vegan communities :)
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As to your cunt's magical vegan properties - prove it! *wicks*
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(and besides I haven't been laid in a stupid length of time and even then I needed to import)
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Season 6 of Scrubs is fun, especially the musical episode.
Not too long from now, you shall be in Melbourne!
and then, soon after, in Perth for Swancon!
I saw a complete Kangaroo skeleton covered in goo on Tuesday afternoon, and thought of you. (:
[Because I thought you would enjoy seeing it, not because you look and/or smell like a goo-covered skeleton! (: ]
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"I just gave you sweet loving 5 minutes ago. Are you trying to kill me!?" - Chef.
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"Danny just cocked me," I reply, in front of anyone who's there, usually the time-weary check-out chick. Lee always hugs me with a smile and answers "He's so caring."
My phone rarely has enough credit to reply (I have teenagers) but I do want you to known I'm always thinking of you.
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I hope your blues are chased away soon :)
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You'd like it out here.
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I also now have official Melbourne Writers' Festival business cards. It makes me feel Important.
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Actually, that's not that jolly. Well, sort of. It's been a hard week and the thought of going out to see a play was the thing that kept me going...
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Which was wonderful.
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