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([personal profile] dalekboy Sep. 15th, 2009 09:29 am)
So, yesterday for the first time in ages, I felt properly productive, in that I managed to get a few important jobs out the way that weren't just housework/Lex related. Not my tax, but hey, getting some of that other stuff off my to-do list was nice. As a bonus I even got to listen to the Feast of Steven episode of Daleks' Master Plan, which as a real hoot, while I ate. And I looked at LJ, and even commented on one or two!

So today I wake up with an earache, sore throat, and my cold which has been gradually fading is back substantially worse than it was before - a wonderfully nasty sounding hacking choking cough.

For fuck's sake! What is this? Punishment for actually getting something done?! I've been sick non-stop since C5, and I'm getting a little tired of it.

What's really annoying is that once if I was sick I could more or less barrel through it if need be. It wasn't fun, but it could be done. Post-stroke, when normal everyday stuff knocks me about, and I have to be aware of potential knock-on effects to the rest of the week if I overdo something, even a minor cold knocks the stuffing out of me.

Plus having a cold now always brings with it the worry that Lex will catch it. And wouldn't that be fun?

*Shakes fist at random point in the sky* God! If you existed you bastard you'd so be sixth on my shitlist right now!
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From: [identity profile] dalekboy.livejournal.com


It literally takes years of really hard work to get on my shitlist. Or for someone to hit on my mum less than a week after my dad has died, and to try and claim that they should shag in his memory. That's a good way to get there without the hard work :)

I tend to think the best of people, and to pretty much always be willing to give people multiple chances, so you have to be pretty consistently horrible to people over a fairly extended period to get there. And that's just not you :)

Most of the people I've ended up hating don't care how much damage they do to others, so long as they get what they want. They use and abuse and they only show signs of remorse if they think that's what will get people off their backs. And if seriously caught out, they will find an excuse, or blame some other poor bugger, rewriting history as much as is needed so that they are back to being squeaky clean.

As [livejournal.com profile] shazgirl pointed out to me, I'll take a hell of a lot of nastiness, lies and abuse aimed in my direction and mostly shrug it off (with a bit of whingeing), but when I see someone else being hurt, that's I start to get really angry.

From: [identity profile] ariaflame.livejournal.com


So basically you hate the sociopaths you have met that you have seen mucking with other people?

I can't think of anyone I actively hate. There are people I dislike and people I will avoid if at all possible, but actively hating would take too much of my energy so as long as they're not bothering me or my friends then I can't be stuffed. Perhaps one day someone will do something that will get them over that line, but I'm not as yet sure where the line is.

On the other hand I'm also very limited in the people I love. While people such as yourself find it very easy to love, and possibly hard not to, it takes a lot more to get me to that level. I do cherish the people I have managed to achieve that with (though I'm still working on the balance between expressing that, and being clingy/needy - So sometimes I err on the side of not saying enough because I don't want to overdo things)

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